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Swimming with the shark

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Have you ever swam over a mile in a lap pool? You know the feeling at the start, to think there are over 80 more lenghs coming, the water is cold, this will take forever? But then, towards the end, it gets so easy, and the last lap usually turns out to be the most enjoyable one of your entire swim… Now imagine your 1mile+ swim with a hungry shark chasing you the entire time. That´s a professional snowboarding season. …

A love declaration

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   I used to hate the winter. I still hate the cold. The one thing powerful enough to let me make friends with the winter was snowboarding, after 14 years of struggling with it. Snowboarding has changed my life in so many ways. Far beyond allowing me to sympathize with winter, it enabled me to find and be myself. At age 13 I felt trapped in an uptight ballett-horse-A-grade-student-piano-world, and caught myself phantasizing about having a skateboard more and more …

From Jaegermeister to the Nirvana. Zooms on life.

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Originally, this was a text about „Cheating, Killing and Chocolate Mousse.“ There were some fundamental thoughts leading from roadkill to the group dynamics of war and the question wheather 2 married women put less guilt on their shoulders when they have a threesome with a stranger than if they´d take him home alone, individually. I ditched the text not only because I couldn´t answer the threesome question, but also because I realized that all those thoughts are like sand castles …

In between. Munich Purgatory.

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  It´s June. I haven´t written a personal blog in a long time. Didn´t feel like it. Wrote for another blog too, one that I couldn´t pour my heart into. Doing something half-hearted can take a lot more energy than going all in and forcing yourself to be more shallow than you truely are comes at a price. It´s hard to pretend, even if it means the easier road, less work, less thinking, less risk. I´m on the road back …

See what I see, feel what I feel

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It starts with the squishing sound that snow only makes when the temperatures are almost unbearably low, a sound I haven´t heard in Germany in a long time. Either because global warming has already hit us too hard or because I´m barely at home through those coldest times of the year. This squeeking melody my feet create while walking along the snowy path to the gym on a freezing but clear and sunny Breckenridge early jet-lag-morning, the sharp shaped grey …